Last time when we were together, I shared that I was called to wait the Lord. However, I was also called to rest upon Him and trust in Him. God had been preparing to move me from my comfort zone into the unknown but first I needed to learn a few lessons. I needed to learn to obey and trust in God fully.
After receiving the call that changed our lives. I did what we decided that was best for us. Yet, God still had plans for me. After registering our child into the public school system. Again we had to wait for an assignment so we could register him at that school. Days were slipping by, the start of school was getting closer and I had not received his assignment. Four day before school was to start, I started an investigation only to receive news that caused a struggle within me. I called upon my prayer warriors once again to ask them to continue to pray for us and that I would see clearly God’s guidance. I trusted God, I knew God alone would work everything out, I knew God had plans for us but I was struggling with the whys? Why did the school that he had gone to his whole life wait so late into the summer to make this decision? Why has my preparedness leave us unprepared? What am I not hearing from God that I missed? At this point I was so broken and weak, all I could do was cry out to God.
The next day during my devotion time the repeated key words were courage and grace. I knew what I needed to do and I knew I needed God to help me. After my prayer, I wrote my prayer down to carry it with me as I headed out the door. It was “Lord, give me the courage to do what I must do and the grace to do it profoundly through You.” The only way I can explain the events of that day is that God orchestrated a beautiful day for us. I did not receive the answers to my questions from the night before and that is okay. I did not really need the answers. God was not just telling me to wait upon Him, rest upon Him and trust in Him. He also wanted me to completely empty myself out upon Him. I needed to pour my entire heart out, say it out loud what I was afraid to say at all. I had missed what He was softly telling me. It was not until I completely gave it all to Him, for God to continue on with His plans for us. Plans that still require growth on my part. Plans with more lessons to learn which I will be sharing soon.
Fear stops us from experiencing all God has for us. Fear delays what God has planned of us. Do not be afraid to completely cry out to God. He has not given us a spirit of fear. He lives within us and wants so much more for us than we could ever possibly imagine.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV”
In His Love, Crisi