Your Past, should it be revisited?
Sometimes things happen for a reason, though we may not know why they happen. There is one who does, that is God. He has a plan for you and it’s all on His timing and in His control!! Instead of trying to figure it out, just trust He has this too. Is the post I wrote a few days ago on R&W Facebook page. So why do past events come back to taunt you? Was there something there that you missed? That part of your life has been said and done or is there something new you are supposed to learn?
Twenty Five years ago today, I was a young, naive nineteen year old girl going through basic training at Lackland Air Force Base in Texas. The day I was discharged was the day the flight I was assigned to graduated. They were going on with their career and I was going home. Defeated, deflated and not sure about my future. Fast forward to the present time, the past came back to taunt me. Offering false hopes that were not meant to be. You see, I received a letter in the mail stating I am on record of being a vet but not signed up for any benefits. Thinking it was a scam I pulled out my military records to confirm what all these years I believed to be true. Not Eligible. I went down to the local VA office to dig a little in case some kind of law had changed things. I made an appointment to have my questions answered and yes the answer was, “no, you are not eligible for any benefits.” The letter was not a scam, just an automatic mailing.
The Problem With Visiting Your Past
I know over the years, I have pulled my records out once or twice and read over them. However, the words sort of stung this time. Those particular words were as follows, “You did not meet the standards to join…. So, you should not have been allowed to join…”. Wow, that hurts was the first thought that went through my head. This time the feels of defeated and deflated came from a report from decades ago, but that was my past and the thoughts did not come from God. As quickly as the feelings and thoughts came then they were gone. The problem with visiting this part of my past was not what was in the report. It was with not dealing with what was in my heart that I never turned over to God. The military life was not what He had planned for me. His plans were grander than mine. So when things happen, stop trying to figure them out. Take them to God and trust that He has this just like He has everything.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
Is there anything from your past that you need turn over to God? Do so now, He’s waiting!
In His Love, Crisi
I totally get you on the revisiting our past. The problem with mine before was a bad relationship that went on for years, that now that I am happily married with 2 kids I couldnt help but get mad at myself for allowing things to happen ( in the past )..you know the.. I should have’s.. I could have’s.. But I came into terms that without those wrong decisions in my life..I wont have the life I have right now. . Anyway..stopping by from A Bountiful love appreciate you taking time to comment on my blog..I am sending the love back 🙂 and I liked your fb page too.
Hi Khat, thank you for sharing. I am glad you were able to come to terms with your past. I understand the “should haves and could haves”! I have also, as I’m sure you have been able to see where our paths of not such great decisions has served to better our character and yes in this case a better life. Thanks for stopping by.